Saturday, August 05, 2006
Hmms. After much pondering, I have came to the conclusion that we are from 2 very
DIFFERENT worlds. Though on the outlook, the 2 of us look pretty much the same. Compatible in a sense that both of us look pretty, erms, wild? However we are on very different grounds.
Take him for example, he is pretty much against ''gangsterism''. However, he fights. Not occasionally, but pretty often. While me, the tamer looking one and indeed the more tame one, has got tons of ear piercings in which he doesnt fancy at all. As wild as I can be, I hate smokers. Not really hate, just that smoking is not something wich I wld wan my frns to do. Less to say my boyfriend, however he smokes. He likes tatoos, but i only like those with woodstock in them. The only thing that we can agree on, is probably only drinking.
The strangest thing about us is that. Both of us are extremist, his a male chauvinist, while im a feminist. So there's hardly
ANYTHING which we can agree on. He doesnt like to give in, neither do I. Sometimes I really wonder how on earth did the 2 of us end up together, or used to be. =.=
I used to think that I really uds him, until when shit happens and things starts getting messy then I realised that maybe..just maybe.. I never understood him at all. Even right now, I dun know what his thinking. Be it like,love or hate. I used to be able to see, be able to feel that he loves me. haha. But that was the past la! Right now, things just dun seem the same. Ling [not LingSquare] told me that it was because he used to give in to me, regardless whether it was his fault or mine. But still its merely our assumptions. =]
Right now, it seems as though the 3 of us are on the same boat. Though each of us claimed to have let go, but our heart says otherwise. Haha. Sometimes I really feel like prying the guy's brains open and see whats inside. At least that will save us some misery. Geesh. Im crapping already. =/
Haha. But still, Im hanging on and so are the girls. =D
